Stones And Flowers
Posted on | September 19, 2008
I think I’m going to go out later today in the morning to the Verizon stores and see what kind of phones they have. I’m pretty sure I’d like the enV2 but it’s not set in stone. I mainly want something for texting as stated before. When I get a new phone I’ll post it and let everyone know my opinion on it after some playing around and usage. Might go to the pet store too and get a couple small fish to watch swim around. Oscars were fun while they lasted but I want something smaller to enjoy that’s very energetic.
The past couple of days have been really interesting and disturbing all in the same. Someone I wanted out of my life and dead to me for good showed back up expressing lingering feelings and desires for companionship with me. I don’t know her exact motives or what to do about it, but it’s got me really uneasy and confused. I’m not a forgiving person, nor am I very nice at all. I’ve expressed this several times but it’s like she refuses to listen and accept the fact that I don’t want what she’s selling anymore. I feel bad for her, I’d even offer my hand in friendship again but I don’t think it could be left at just friendship with her; I think she’d want more after that, but I’m not sure of what her angle is. One thing about time is that it always reveals the truth of things, so I’ll wait.
I’m sorry but I need you to stay dead.
Toxic Fumes
Posted on | September 17, 2008
I’m torn between my favorite brand of cigarettes now. At first it was always hands down Newport Kings, ever since I’ve been smoking. Recently I tried the new Camel Crush cigarettes and liked them a lot. Basically in the filter there is a small menthol bead that you crush and it turns your regular Camel into a menthol brand without having menthol flavored tobacco. It’s pretty fun and it makes a small pop when you crush the bead. I feel sort of like I’m betraying myself and my brand by switching on and off between the two. I’m in a triangle of love, it’s so hard to pick my lover of the two. How will I ever recover from this guilt?
Fixed up a couple things on the site, added a new page and a link to register if you’d like to frequently comment might as well become a member. You’ll get a fancy newsletter about how hardcore I am occasionally and be updated whenever I make new posts or modify the site dramatically. Mm, make sure to drop feedback and let me know what you’d like to see on this blog, even if it’s something minor or something extreme like me castrating myself via live video, just drop the hints and I’ll try to meet you half way.
‘Tis But A Scratch
Posted on | September 17, 2008
I’m an idiot. I was messing around with comment plugins and accidentally deleted everyone’s previous comments. I apologize, but the topics are still up if you’d like to re-comment on them or something. I got it sorted out now so it won’t happen again, it was a pain in the ass to look back and realize I deleted everyone’s replies. I’ve been getting some spam comments because I allowed anyone to post without moderation. I changed it so that you have to be approved once in order to post freely on my entries. Yep, no more Viagra and Vicodin spam on this site! I didn’t mind it, but it got out of control, so I had to put a stop to it. Sorry spammers, don’t mean to cut your funds.
I watched a movie today that I’ve never seen before. It has Edward Norton in it so I couldn’t resist. The flick is called The Illusionist
I’m going to start actively posting on this site from now on, I’ve just been in a funk lately starting to snap out of it and take care of what’s needed to be taken care of. This blog needs more content and something to spice it up, make it a bit more appealing to the average viewer instead of me just ranting all the time. Once I find out what that is, expect wonderful things from here.
Merchant Of Death
Posted on | September 15, 2008
I’m in need of a new phone and my current provider is Verizon. I was checking out a few of their phones and think I want to get one that is more text oriented, with the qwerty format. So far I’ve seen people suggest the LG Voyager
I’m probably going to pop in a movie before I go to bed, I’ve been wanting to watch Unbreakable
Sinister Strike
Posted on | September 13, 2008
Cetta bought me a book series called A Song Of Ice And Fire without my knowledge, but I greatly appreciate it. I just feel bad because I’ve never bought her anything before. The third book in the series came today via UPS. When I woke from my deep sleep I saw it on the kitchen table and knew exactly what it was without reading the label. It’s just one of those things you can tell by the shape of the package. When I get the first book I plan to read it rather quickly; if I like it I’ll write up a synopsis on it and move to the next one. Thanks Cetta!
On another note, life has been pretty uneventful for the time being, just watching movies with a friend and playing World of Warcraft
I think instead of a full time job I’m going to go for something part-time for awhile and use money I make online to make up the difference in pay checks. For some strange reason I don’t desire to work 40 hours a week or more again, it got boring with an intense haste. I’ll probably pick a desk job or something involving computers instead of working in a factory again. I might as well take it easy than bust my ass in the heat and cold for the same pay.
The Plague
Posted on | August 20, 2008
To here I declare, when all is nothing and nothing is all; meaningless existences, casual encounters and complete stability break downs, what is there to catch you? Metaphysical embrace by family, friends, strangers? Is the norm really right? As Insanity claws it’s way through a decrepit mind, will there ever be a force to engage in combative debates and arguments proclaiming what is thought isn’t reality? Can something completely tainted and plagued by relentless despair recover? Even if it can be rebuilt will it be the same as before or will it always be missing that one piece of the puzzle that makes you a drone to society and to everyone else’s views and restraints? They say a bird held in captivity can never be reintroduced into the wild. Shouldn’t the same apply to a person?
I feel as if I submit and allow myself to become a zombie just like everyone else in this world, I will be nothing more than another constructed cube added to the pyramid of mortality. Why should I have to jump through circus hoop after circus hoop endlessly just to live an ordinary life. I desire something more, something of supreme excellence that will make me more than just a man. Is it too unrealistic to crave superiority and worth without relying on materialistic wealth? I seek enlightenment, ever growing wisdom and knowledge. I want to be the person everyone stares at in disbelief.
A mind simplistically covered in mange, left immobilized and without ambition to rearrange incoherent thoughts into an ideal or to consume them for divinity. Ode to the Heartless.
Camouflage
Posted on | August 14, 2008
I’ve been on a huge Harley Quinn trip lately. I don’t know what it is about this female character from Batman but I think she’s my favorite comic book villain of all time other than Mister J himself. It probably has something to do with me seeing The Dark Knight when it first came out. Heath Ledger played a pretty maniacal role, not your typical Joker, pretty morbid. I enjoyed his portrayal better than any other live action version I’ve seen so far, including Jack Nicholson’s comical version. It’s a shame Heath over-dosed, they probably won’t be able to find someone to replace his talent and uniqueness, leaving us Joker-less for future Batman movies. On another note, I’m impatiently waiting for my new Harley Quinn cigarette case to come in the mail, bought it from ebay for 22 dollars or so after shipping fees. It’s coming from Thailand, I hope it’s a good quality case because I’m in love with the image in on it.
The other night I drank 151 for the first time with some friends of mine. We were drinking it straight from the bottle without chaser shots, it was the most intense drink I’ve ever had. I’m shocked I even made it home in that drunken state. The first time I hit the bottle I coughed and I drink 110 Vodka straight. The lights of on coming traffic were a complete blur to me, I was honked at several times if my fuzzy memory of the night is accurate. I was probably halfway in the road, I fell down twice trying to make it up my steps so I wouldn’t doubt it. I think I might hang out with them again today and go in on another bottle or two if I can get some decent sleep tonight and they avoid the drama.
The Blood Brothers - Camouflage
“Alice, where’s your tongue?”
She said, “Look in the encyclopedia’s ceaseless chatter.”
“Alice, where’s your hair?”
She said, “Look in the sharp of a well-worn butterfly knife.”
“Alice, where’s your teeth?”
She said, “Look at the piano. They’re dangling from every single chord.”
“Alice, where’s your lips?”
“Look in the empires roaring; the tyrants getting so loud and boring.”
“Alice, where’s your man?”
“Look in this black eye written like the o in the word goodbye.”
“Alice, where’s your house?”
“It’s built on the hush of your favorite record’s screeching halt.”
“Alice, where’s your clothes?”
“They’ll be sweet sheets around your eyes when street boars eat you alive!”
“Alice, where’s your swans?”
The Synthetic Generation
Posted on | August 6, 2008
This is my first post so I won’t go into too much detail about myself but more as to why I wanted a blog to call my own. I’ve blog’d for awhile on various sites such as Livejournal, Deadjournal, etc. I figured it was time I kept up with the new age and got myself a personal domain and lifted the limitations various journal sites place upon their users. I don’t plan to be too brutal, but sometimes I may get off on incoherent rants, if this happens to be the case too often, just comment and tell me to die an agonizing death. I won’t take offense to this at all, so don’t censor yourself, because I won’t be!
My name is Ezra for starters. I am twenty years of age and I am currently searching new employment. I didn’t care for my last job too much and wanted a change. I believe blogging might help me give myself more time to sit down and think about the direction I want to take myself in. I like to reflect on major turning points in my life and see how I could possibly better the situation I’m in currently by noting my mistakes, and not repeating them. I won’t talk about the past often here. I tend to lean towards the present and near future when discussing aspects of my personal interests.
Today was a pretty average day for me, nothing really to discuss that would captivate any of my readers. I did some shopping online for a few books and apparel that I was having a hard time finding in bookstores or at the mall. I was pretty satisfied with the quiet time I gave myself today, just read a little, watched some television, nothing spectacular. Everyone needs a day or two a week just to relax, today was that day for me.
Hopefully I can build decent traffic and expand my fan base to the masses! If you find my later posts at all interesting, don’t be too timid to share this domain with your friends or family. I should probably get some sleep in a couple hours, I feel worn down.